Being pregnant comes with my many joys, one of which is feeling your little angel move. My baby, Sweet Pea, is an active baby who moves a lot, most days. Some days I can just watch her movements by staring at my belly. Other days, I just feel constant kicks. Then there are times like yesterday when it feels like she’s tap dancing on my cervix, a less than pleasant feeling. But just the feeling of movement reassures me that she’s okay.
This is my seventh pregnancy, but only my third to make it past the first trimester. Now, I’m in the third trimester. I’m also confident it will be my last pregnancy, our last baby. While I love our girls and look forward to Sweet Pea’s arrival, I’m done.
I used to enjoy being pregnant, and in some ways I still do. I still love knowing I have a life growing inside of me. I love feeling a baby move inside of me. I enjoy the anticipation of bringing a blessing into the world.
But, this pregnancy has been harder on me than the last two, not that those were easy either. With both girls I had awful extended morning sickness. With Grace, my back pain would never fully ease up. I developed sciatica, too.
And, I’m the type of asthmatic whose asthma gets worse every time I’m pregnant. I go from not needing daily meds to needing them. Not only that, but with each pregnancy, my asthma gets worse. A few months ago, I went to the doctor and he doubled the dosage on a bronchodilator medication I use. It helped, for a while. Now, I struggle to catch my breath some days if I just walk across the house. (And forget grocery shopping, my husband does that chore now.) I tried to improve things on my own, without success. I have an appointment tomorrow with my doctor to discuss further options.
Considering how hard it is for me to breathe now, I can’t imagine how bad my asthma would get for a fourth full-term pregnancy. The thought actually scares me.
Then, there is the glucose screening test I took this past week. I’ve always passed the test in the past and hoped to do the same. I can’t stand the idea of doing the three-hour glucose tolerance test (GTT). But, I failed my screening test. By two lousy points!! It used to be the numbers needed to be lower than 140. My test came in at 132, but they lowered the required level to 130 or below. Ouch! So, this Friday I get to spend at least 3 hours at the lab getting my glucose levels checked. Since I came very close to throwing up the concentrated liquid I was given for the screening, I’m extremely concerned that I won’t be able to keep down the even more concentrated version for the GTT. If that happens, I’ll be forced to do it again.
Oh, and I learned something interesting this week. The medication I’m using for my asthma could contribute to higher sugar levels showing up on any screening or test. I’ll address that with my doctor on Monday as well as my obstetrician before I take the GTT.
Because I can’t breathe, because I need to take the GTT, because of morning sickness that never seems to end, and because I’m 43, I’m done. No more pregnancies for me. I plan to enjoy the rest of this one as best I can and relish the parts I love.
My Writing Around the Web:
My Daughter Definitely Actually Just Said That. I’m a contributor for What the Flicka! now and this is my first post with them. It’s a humorous take on what happens when your three-year-old says a bad word.
Slow Cooker Taco Dip Since my morning sickness if finally gone, I’m back to sharing recipes. Here is an easy and delicious dip that is sure to be a hit!
It’s Time to Stop Fat Shaming This post I wrote a few weeks ago was picked up by Huffington Post (and was actually what got me invited to be a HuffPo blogger) and got a lot of traffic (plus several trolls if you look at the comments).
“Mommy, We Need to Watch Netflix!” My girls love watching movies. They often ask that I turn on Netflix.
Whatever Happened to Compassion? Why is it so many people are rude on the internet? I talk about how we treat each other online versus real-life and wonder what happened to compassion on the Huffington Post.
The First Full Day of Spring My first full day of spring wasn’t spent outside enjoying a beautiful day. Nope. It was spent inside with a sick child.
Not-to-Miss Articles from Around the Web
I’ve been busy reading lots of blog posts. I’m sharing a few of my favorites that you really should read!
I’m a Selfish Mom and Proud of it! This post on Scary Mommy really resonated with me. I’m a selfish mom, too. (Well, I don’t consider it selfish to take care of myself, to be fair, but some might think so.)
Free Range Kids: Are they Neglected or Loved? I absolutely loved this post!! I think that free range parenting is the way to go for the most part (or basically raising my kids the way I was raised). I love how the author addresses what it really is (and isn’t) for those who might not understand.
An Open Letter to My Sons About Peeing in The Toilet A humorous post from my friend Jill as she deals with her boys and their aim.